This is a double post day.
"My sore throats are always worse than anyone's."~Persuasion
It's not even noon and this day is off to a rough start. Had to move my car for street cleaning. I had to park about 5 blocks away at 7 in the morning. Tried to workout, forgot the gym key. Elliptical is not working correctly. Walking on the treadmill with my negative thoughts on repeat...."If I don't belong here, where do I belong? I don't know that I want to stay here for more than a year. I can't see myself building a life here? Where else could I go? I will never get a job.....yada yada ya." Then I dropped my iPhone, the ear buds disconnect which causes the treadmill to shut down and not come back on. I give up. I'm going back to the apartment.
My friend, Lauren keeps reminding me that the main character in the movie has to suffer. Nothing goes the way we plan. It will be something to laugh at later, but I feel that my life is filled with nothing but things I am suppose to laugh at later but the time to laugh never comes. I don't know when this life is suppose to start...I'm still waiting. I fear I will still be waiting on my deathbed with no one to share my thoughts with but Fievel the plush mouse my Papaw gave me when I was 3.
This too shall pass. Until then, this song is on repeat in my heart and on my iPod......
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fORAPkfVV_A
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