"There are certainly not so many men of large fortune in the world, as there are pretty women to deserve them." ~Jane Austen
I don’t even know how to start this because I am ashamed of feeling this way. I hate having crushes. I hate them. And I especially hate them when they begin because you think that said guy likes you first. So essentially your feelings stem from something artificial because inevitably he doesn’t actually have feelings for you and you are left with another bad case of unrequited love.
And what if this particular instance the guy happens to be
completely wonderful and attains attributes in a future husband you never knew
you needed. He is thoughtful and kind and mature. He takes the time to get to
know people and steps back to assess situations. He genuinely cares for people
and wants them to succeed. What do I do when I recognize I want these
attributes in a future husband but want to get over this crush because I know
that he is not interested in me and I am sick of being hurt. I have been
praying that I am coming to God in my daily devotion to be closer to Him and to
make myself whole. I don’t want to be doing it with a hidden agenda in hopes
that someone will love me, but in the several weeks since I have begun my
devotion, I have developed a crush. This isn’t fair. I am feeling attacked. I
almost want to stop my devotion to prove I am not doing it for the wrong
reasons. As I am writing this I guarantee that is what the Devil wants me to
do. AHA! I have found you out, Satan. You will not prevail!
After my Mom called to ask who I was crushing on, I felt the need to add this reminder....the posts in a different font are old.
After my Mom called to ask who I was crushing on, I felt the need to add this reminder....the posts in a different font are old.
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