A Fanny and Edward kind of love

This old entry is my Northanger Abbey.  I don't love this post, but it has a few good points that I wanted to share. 

“Happiness in marriage is entirely a matter of chance.”

So because I can no longer dwell on my flaws and why I can’t seem to attract anyone, I am going to have faith that it will happen and begin searching what kind of guy I want. I was watching a movie the other night…OK! It was Valentine’s Day. I am ashamed of myself. I don’t need your judgment, I judge myself enough for everyone. Anyway, Ashton Kutcher’s character asked George Lopez’s character how he and his wife worked and George say, “I married my best friend.”

Cheesy I know but it simple things that make girls like me melt. I thought, “I want to marry my best friend.”  I will need a guy best friend first but I am sure my lack of them has to do with my fear of men. Think about that. How wonderful that would be to be married to your favorite person in the world? The person you tell everything to. The person you go to when you had a bad day or a good day.  When you hear a funny joke?  Or when you need to talk about life or religion or whatever?  He’s the person that you laugh the most with and have the most fun with. And when you fight with the one you love, even though you are angry with him, you still go to him to be comforted by him because he is your best friend and knows you better than anyone.

That is what I long for. That is just the sort of thing I like. Maybe that is why no one has asked me out, not because there is something wrong with me but fate is prepping my best friend. He is not seasoned yet.

I love to laugh, and I like for people to laugh at me in their turn. I want him (the best friend that I would call to see what he is doing or to hang out when I am bored) to be my husband. Not JUST my husband but to get to hang out with my best friend every day for the rest of my life, that is what I want.

When best friends are in love it is an enjoyable relationship to watch. It is a different relationship than others have; there is always so much laughter.

“I pay very little regard...to what any young person says on the subject of marriage. If they profess a disinclination for it, I only set it down that they have not yet seen the right person.”