It’s Weight Loss Wednesday.
Since I failed to post in a while I will update you on a few lessons I've learned recently.
So to begin….I have been on and off my diet over the last
several weeks. As usual. I have lost the motivation that I once had
almost 3 or 4 years ago…I’ve lost track.
Time to find it again. I am more
so trying to reset my mind, actually. I
have decided to incorporate a cheat day a week because it is more realistic and
a lifetime change; and that is how I have to look at it from now on…not a diet
but a lifestyle. As I’ve mentioned
before I am reading a book called Made to Crave (I know, I know…I am not
finished with it yet, but it is more of a workbook) to work through the
emotional tie to food that we all have.
The change I have to make especially hit home last Saturday when I went
to Disneyland….yeah! Such a magical it
should have been but the mood was dismal when I couldn’t find anything
comfortable to wear. My dream outfit is
a t-shirt and jeans. A T-Shirt and
Jeans? Yes, a t-shirt and jeans. When you have been heavy all your
life…..feeling and looking cute in something simple is the greatest
accomplishment. That’s when I decided it
was over. Done. Feeling this way is something of the past.
Chapter 10 is all about temptation....how appropriate! She said something very interesting about temptation..."It's not fair that God won't let us eat of the fruit of the tree in the middle of the garden.....one little bite wouldn't be so bad right?" That made me think of when I give into temptation not thinking of the long term consequences. Reminds me of the saying...."moment on the lips, lifetime on the hips". It's strange I don't see food that way when I am a "bigger picture" type person in everything else. I never smoked growing up because cancer. I never drank growing up because it could become an addiction. Never had sex because pregnancy and STDs (not that it was even an option). Interesting that I don't view food this way.
She said something in the book that brought to my attention that if I lose this weight...I will have a physical victory in Jesus name. A physical testimony!
Now that I am figuring out all of the emotional issues I have tied to food I am on to the next biggest hurdle which is my patience or lack there of. The journey to losing weight might be harder than overcoming the emotional ties to food. Why isn't it enough to work through the issues....then you have to work to lose what took all those years to pack on? UGH....patience. Stay tuned as I fight that battle daily. So often I say this prayer to God...."Dear God, Give me patience. And I am not talking about one of those lessons to test my patience. We both know I would fail that game.....because I don't have any....so I need to borrow yours. In Jesus Name." This week as I was listening to my Mumford and Sons CD which has rarely left my player since October I really listened to the lyrics of the song "I Will Wait".....I think he provided my theme song whilst I lose this weight. Enjoy.
Like a stone
And I fell Heavy into your arms
These days of dust,
Wish we would've known,
Will blow away with this new sun
But I’ll kneel down, wait for now
I’ll kneel down, know my ground
I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
So bring my step
And relent, you forgave and I wont forget
Know what we've seen
And him with less
knowing some way to shake the excess
I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
Now I’ll be bold, as well as strong
And use my head, along side my heart
So tame my flesh and fix my eyes
a tethered mind freed from the lies
But I’ll kneel down, wait for now
I’ll kneel down, know my ground
(instrumental)
Raise my hands
Paint my spirit gold
Bow my head, feel my heart slow
I will wait, I wait wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
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