Where do we go from here....

....this isn't where we intended to be.

I am pretty excited about the path that life is heading in.  There is a plan forming.....It is not the plan that I would have imagined my life would take but you know the saying.....

You know the one I am talking about....

Yes, you do.

Really?

Have you been living under a rock?

OK, I'll tell you.

If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans.

You've heard that.

Anyway, I had to ask God's forgiveness last week....I mean, I ask his forgiveness every day, mostly for my unfiltered tongue, but in this instance it was something new.....I had to ask forgiveness for up and quitting my job without praying about it.  I just knew I couldn't go back.  It wasn't planned.  I was dressed and ready to go but filled with dread.  The same dread I have been filled with for months.  I have worked jobs that have had their ups and downs.  I have worked with difficult people before but this was different.  The job was like a Dementor.  Like I'd never be cheerful again and the only thing that helped me out of the funk was chocolate.

So, here I am.  A week later.....jobless.  I had a great week last week casting a Pilot that my friend Jen wrote.  I have always suspected I would love to be a Casting Director and I suspected RIGHT!  I had so much fun casting for the Pilot and my future boyfriend.....although most of the boyfriend prospects were no call/no shows....story of my life.

Although, I did love casting, and I would still love to be a part of the Entertainment Industry, I have still come back to the cold hard fact that I do not have a job.....or any kind of trade that I can make money at to live on in between the random fun Industry jobs that I love.  So, like I said, there is a plan forming that I am actually very excited about but I don't really want to talk about right now because life changes so drastically and so quickly that I cannot risk sounding like a flake.  All I will say is it will sort of take me back to the life that I was living previously.  I just very much hope that this isn't the theme for the rest of my life.....going back and forth on what I am going to be doing.....changing jobs.  I sincerely hope this is just a bad case of the...late bloomer....just figuring out what I want to do with my life....Kraft cheesy macaroni blues. 

Moving on.....I haven't had any sugar since New Year's Eve....I was tempted about 30 minutes ago.  I made Pumpkin Cream Cheese Bread.....not to eat, but for the love of baking.  My roommates have eaten some and I really thought about it but knew how mad at myself I would be if I had.  The only trouble with giving up sugar I have had is that I seem to be replacing sugar with popcorn.  I have had more popcorn in the last several weeks than I have had in a year.  So, I have come to the conclusion that I really need to start this book and reader's guide that I bought called, Made to Crave. 

I'm going to kick this food issue I have been struggling with all my life. 

I'm going to say it....Mom, look away......but....shit is about to get real.

Stay tuned to see life changes that will hopefully soon ensue.