What are mountains to men and babies?

"I confess...I never think of time and quiet children with any abhorrence." ~Sense and Sensibility

Up until now I have been very undecided on whether or not I wanted kids.  I mean, I like kids, but I also like handing them back to their parents.  I was watching the nursery at church the other day and I had an epiphany....I want my own kids.  It helped that I was in a room full of very pleasant and easy going baby girls, but I decided I do indeed want kids.  Of course this comes days after my 29th Birthday still having never even had a date.  I may just be setting myself up for disappointment. 

And of course it doesn't help that I just watched this episode of New Girl which said as soon as a woman turns 30 she loses about 90% of her eggs.  I am not saying that all of life's problems can be solved by New Girl because they can't.  They have yet to solve problems on this show....just create problems we can relate to.......

But I do know things are happening.  The loneliness of Los Angeles is taking over...Tonight, as I was sitting at home by myself (as usual) very much to my embarrassment and shame, I typed "dating" into my search engine.  I then shook my head...almost slapped my own face much like Kate Winslet in The Holiday after she tries to asphyxiate herself with gas.  For the first time in my life I think I am ready to date (late bloomer), but of course that doesn't mean it is going to happen just because I want it to.

Another clip from the same episode of New Girl.  This is why I need male roommates.  Kidding

Kind of.

I became side-tracked a little bit because I just wanted to share the hilariousness that is New Girl but back to my beautifully tragic life.

When did this happen?  When did I become the girl that wants to get married and have kids?  It's been my biggest fear in life.  Let me clarify, I do not have baby fever....I am not going to become Monica Gellar in Friends and start searching for a sperm donor, and I am NOT going to go searching on the Internet for my future husband.

I still want the husband and kids that I am supposed to have at the time it is supposed to be so and not a moment sooner.

"There was a scarcity of men in general, and a still greater scarcity of any that were good for much." ~Jane Austen