Thursday, December 13, 2012

Well, crap.....What they say is true.

It's all about perspective, isn't it? 

Attitude is everything.....and all that other bull you read on the motivational posters in the Guidance Counselor's Office. 

Last week I was ready to give up on everything I've ever dreamed.  After 3 months in LA, I was ready to pack up my things and leave my hopes and dreams here in California like millions of others before me.  As you know I am not happy in my current job, nor would I probably be happy at any job that is not contributing to my Industry goals, but I digress.   I was miserable going into work day after day.  I almost put in my notice, but one morning when I just couldn't take it anymore I received a forward from my friend Jan, and of course I was more than willing to read it because of the subject line.....


Dr. Jim Denison, President
Dec 07, 2012
Tim Tebow's act 'better than any touchdown'

event making headlines? Here's the story: Matthew survived a car crash last Saturday involving a drunk driver, but his girlfriend and friend were killed. Friends created the Twitter hashtag #TebowCallMatt, hoping to get the quarterback's attention.

Their campaign worked: Tebow learned about Matthew's tragedy and called him. Tebow said later, "You think of what have I done to deserve an opportunity to encourage a kid like that. It's worth everything and it's awesome. It's better than any touchdown I'll ever score."

Continuing our theme: People magazine is profiling "individuals whose extraordinary bravery and kindness stood out this year." Among them: Michael McDonnell and Dylan Smith, who rescued six people during Superstorm Sandy; J.D. and James Bennett, who pulled two toddlers from a burning van in California; Madison Wallraf, who saved 22 horses in a burning barn; and N.Y.P.D. Officer Larry DePrimo, whose gift of shoes to a homeless man made international headlines.

Here's another inspirational sports story making headlines. Jared Stevens is on the Sunset Middle School wrestling team in Nashville, Tennessee. He also has cerebral palsy. He cheers for the team during practices and matches, but has long wanted to wrestle. When Sunset was competing against Freedom Middle School a few days ago, his coach asked Freedom's coach which wrestler on his team "has the kindest heart." He was introduced to seventh-grader Justin Kievit.

As the video shows, Jared's coach placed him on the gym floor. Justin shook his hand, then lay down beside him, put Jared's arm over his body and was pinned, giving Jared the victory. Good Morning America told their story yesterday morning; the video has gone viral. As Jared's father said, "The two adjectives that come out of this whole episode are courage and character, on both of these guys' parts." Justin said, "Sometimes winning isn't the right thing, isn't the most important thing." The news anchor who reported the story said, "It makes you feel better about the world."

It does, indeed. In a society worried this morning about the economy, riots in Egypt, chemical weapons in Syria and climate change, these stories prove that a simple act of compassion impacts more people than we can imagine. It doesn't take much salt or light to make a big difference (Matthew 5:13-16).

So be encouraged: your next act of kindness can change the world. The darker the room, the brighter the candle.


After reading this email, my whole perspective on life changed.  Although I am not happy in this job, I am here for a reason.  It won't last forever and in the mean time I can be a light in the darkness.  On the same very day, my Jewish boss asked me about Jesus. 

Also, this week, with my new perspective and attitude, my boss has been trying to get me to stay forever.  He has been discouraging me from not only finding an Industry job but from going anywhere when my lease is up in September.  He has brought me into Staff meetings to discuss matters of the job, tried to take me to lunch, and had me watch clips of Despicable Me on Youtube.  Such a difference from threatening me several weeks ago.  Ain't life crazy?

Another positive experience this week was getting to speak with a client at my current job.  He is in the beginning of a producing career himself, and asked for my resume.  Of course, I emailed him with it immediately and haven't heard back since, it's LA.  Land of flakes.  We shall see.

Although I am still considering moving to New York in the fall and going to Pastry Chef School, I am beginning to embrace my life here.  Attempting to make an attempt (yes, that was intentional) to be more sociable. 

Maybe I am on a Christmas high.  Maybe it's all the excitement of going home soon, but life is looking up.  I'll check back in January when I still don't have an Industry job and I am off sugar. 

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

What are mountains to men and babies?

"I confess...I never think of time and quiet children with any abhorrence." ~Sense and Sensibility

Up until now I have been very undecided on whether or not I wanted kids.  I mean, I like kids, but I also like handing them back to their parents.  I was watching the nursery at church the other day and I had an epiphany....I want my own kids.  It helped that I was in a room full of very pleasant and easy going baby girls, but I decided I do indeed want kids.  Of course this comes days after my 29th Birthday still having never even had a date.  I may just be setting myself up for disappointment. 

And of course it doesn't help that I just watched this episode of New Girl which said as soon as a woman turns 30 she loses about 90% of her eggs.  I am not saying that all of life's problems can be solved by New Girl because they can't.  They have yet to solve problems on this show....just create problems we can relate to.......




But I do know things are happening.  The loneliness of Los Angeles is taking over...Tonight, as I was sitting at home by myself (as usual) very much to my embarrassment and shame, I typed "dating" into my search engine.  I then shook my head...almost slapped my own face much like Kate Winslet in The Holiday after she tries to asphyxiate herself with gas.  For the first time in my life I think I am ready to date (late bloomer), but of course that doesn't mean it is going to happen just because I want it to.

Another clip from the same episode of New Girl.  This is why I need male roommates.  Kidding


Kind of.

I became side-tracked a little bit because I just wanted to share the hilariousness that is New Girl but back to my beautifully tragic life.

When did this happen?  When did I become the girl that wants to get married and have kids?  It's been my biggest fear in life.  Let me clarify, I do not have baby fever....I am not going to become Monica Gellar in Friends and start searching for a sperm donor, and I am NOT going to go searching on the Internet for my future husband.

I still want the husband and kids that I am supposed to have at the time it is supposed to be so and not a moment sooner.

"There was a scarcity of men in general, and a still greater scarcity of any that were good for much." ~Jane Austen