This is most likely one of those posts that I don't have anything specific on my mind, just a plethora of subjects. So, your guess is as good as mine where this is going to end up. Enjoy the ride.
I haven't eaten well this week which is due to hormones, I believe. Sorry if that is TMI but this is my "great void" to send my thoughts out to. I have been extra emotional because my job is troublesome, and as I've said I usually try being pretty optimistic, but it appears my optimism took some unpaid sick leave. The hormones made the work turmoil ten times worse, which then corrupted my eating habits, which ultimately made me feel miserable, and perpetuated the cycle.
Speaking of food, did you know that sugar not only makes you break out and shuts down your immune system, but it also stop white blood cells\ growth which causes you to age faster? Not only does it make you fat, and acneic, but it makes you old? And it is my junk food of choice! WHY ME!? Last night as I lay in bed, regretting everything I put in my body, I made the decision to go sugar free for a year.....starting in January, of course. I truly believe I can do a year. It's a year. I may even gain a year of my life back. I choose to look at it that way. Anyway, I am mentally preparing myself, much like preparing to run a marathon. Also, I can begin praying to prepare, because I am definitely going to need some strength from somewhere else.
Speaking of marathon. I think I will do that too. What have I become?
Back to the job. So, I am looking for a new one because according to my boss, this one is not working out. I almost teared up in front of him while explaining that it is a shame that they haven't gotten to see my true work ethic. I like to work hard, and there is no room for hard work at this job. I like to think that I am not a delusional being. I know when I am at fault and I don't believe I have a victim mentality. I flourish in jobs when I have a project...something to complete. That is where I get my sense of accomplishment, which makes for a job well done, but with 3 people in a cubicle made for 2, I just don't have room to show them how hard I can work. It's very frustrating. So, this job and I almost amicably parted ways this week, but they decided they needed help with paperwork. So paper cuts here I come.
Also, in this week from Satan's planner, I have decided that since I rarely do anything in the evenings except watch TV and repin everything on Pinterest, I might as well start working in the evenings, and get some sort of Entertainment Industry Internship to start making connections. By God, if they won't give me a job in exchange for money, I am going to start offering my services "FO FREE" to break in. (And by services, I mean filing and making calls, not my body, just to make that clear) Wish me luck. Or pray, rather, I don't believe in luck.
Lastly, Tim Tebow now has a girlfriend.
Rough week all around.
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