The Insanity has begun. Pun Intended.
My back muscles are sore. Muscles that have never been sore before. EVER.
You've heard the story of someone struggling with an issue and something just "clicks"? Suddenly they are cured or have a new perspective on life....that just happened! I have all sorts of perspective going on. I know now that I will never kick this food issue. It will always be an issue. It will always be a struggle. Much like the recovering alcoholic surrounded by drinkers, I will always be faced with the temptation to eat what I should not. Food is a more difficult issue to deal with because you have to eat. You don't have to drink. You don't have to use drugs, but you do have to eat to live. With this realization, I know what I have to do....say goodbye to "cheat days". Say "goodbye" to the mentality that I can have (insert sweet/junk food here) when I am skinny. Say "goodbye" to hoarding sweets in my cupboard for when I need them. Say "goodbye" to reward meals. I am not a dog! My sacrifice must be what I love to eat. Why does it have to be food? Why can't I indulge? Because food is what I put on a pedestal, sadly. The food that does not benefit me in any way. Abraham was willing to sacrifice his son. I can sacrifice what it is that gets me through good times and bad because it is my own fault that I covet it.
It took me three months to go through the Made to Crave book. Why? Not because I am a slow reader....no, because I wasn't ready to give up what I hold dear. Much like the rich man in Matthew 19:16-26.
16 Just then a man came up to Jesus and asked, “Teacher, what good thing must I do to get eternal life?”
17 “Why do you ask me about what is good?” Jesus replied. “There is only One who is good. If you want to enter life, keep the commandments.”
18 “Which ones?” he inquired.
Jesus replied, “‘You shall not murder, you shall not commit adultery, you shall not steal, you shall not give false testimony, 19 honor your father and mother,’[a] and ‘love your neighbor as yourself.’[b]”
20 “All these I have kept,” the young man said. “What do I still lack?”
21 Jesus answered, “If you want to be perfect, go, sell your possessions and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me.”
22 When the young man heard this, he went away sad, because he had great wealth.
23 Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Truly I tell you, it is hard for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of heaven. 24 Again I tell you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of God.”
25 When the disciples heard this, they were greatly astonished and asked, “Who then can be saved?”
26 Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”
I am ready now. I am ready to treat my body like a temple. I am ready to make my sacrifice in God's honor. After all he sacrificed his son for my salvation.
I am sure some of you are thinking, "Geez! Food is just food!", but it is my "thing". I am not as distracted by other sins. I don't have a problem with sex and alcohol, those are non-issues for me. Sin is sin, and gluttony is a sin. No more thinking, "Why can't I have a Kit Kat or two? It's not fair." No more. I do it for Him.
So when they continued asking him, he lifted up himself, and said unto them, He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her. John 8:7
All wrongdoing is sin, and there is sin that does not lead to death. 1 John 5:17
Don't judge those who sin differently than you.
